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Sunday, May 15, 2011

3:09 PM

ignorance is your new bestfriend

so today i had my art - 3 hours.

it was okay, i guess.

skipped maths remedial & there's maths paper 1 tmrw. :/

Um, so i screwed up, again.

i made you gave up on me, again.

so i guess right now you won't care if somebody kidnaps me & i disappear for 45634 days.

But it's okay, i guess.

It is my fault. I deserve all this.

Hate me all you want, you said you don't care anymore.

So why should i?

Screw this.

2 more papers left & EXAMS WILL BE FINALLY OVER! ;)

& holidays are coming sooon.

yeaaah baby.

Gonna go crazy during the holidays. Ahaha.

Gonna go m.i.a , then not m.i.a

on of, on of.

Okay, something like that.

you're the only guy i feel comfortable with & i don't know why.

Sometimes i curse you & all, but i swear after that i wish i could take them all back.

I know i make you feel like i don't trust you,

& i keep bugging you with my stupid questions.

But i've told you what had happened to me 'till it was hard for me to trust someone again.

But i guess you still don't understand me.

& maybe you'll never will.

This hurts me, but what's the point?

It's too late for me to say all this to you.

But i just wanna tell you that i enjoyed my time spent with you.

It was fun, & exciting.. & fun.

Ha, y'know what i mean. ;)

i wish we could do it again, but i guess we can't anymore.

I don't want you to be mad at me forever, but that is one thing i can't stop you from doing.

So yeah. Have a great life ahead.

xoxo

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Tuesday, May 10, 2011

4:02 PM

walking on sunshine

Hello there! :)

So today i went out with Naddy & Saiful.

it was fun, i missed them.

So we went to Northpoint to get mother's day gift for my mum & Saiful's.

We were at Mini Toons & the lady there was like,

" BUY THIS LAH $25 ONLY CAN HELP MASSAGE YOUR MUM & IT'S VERY NICE!! "

'cause that thing's vibrating & all.

& she kept talking & talking & she told us that she bought 3 of that thing for her aunt, her other aunt & lastly her mum.. like i care.

Then Nad, Saiful & the lady talked like as if they were long lost friends who's not met for like 523462 years.

See that thing up there that i'm holding?

That's what i bought for my mum for mother's day. :)

No it's not pathetic, stupid.

I know what my mum likes, so i got that for her. :P

So after that we went to Sembawang, the playground at the 3rd level.

it felt great being there, it was where me & my parents bonded. Ha.

We started taking pictures & talked about our primary school days. :)

Then Wali came & so the phrase goes, " the more the merrier. "

LOL that's stupid.

So we continued taking pictures & all.

The playground was as usual, SHAKY.

But it's still standing. Hahaha.

The sky was beautiful, like always.

Decided to go home since Naddy had to.

I went to the mrt to topup my card using all the money i'm left with to pay my library fines so that i could borrow books ..

& when i reached the library IT WAS FUCKING CLOSED.

So i went home feeling %$@#$!@ .

Decided to give my mother's day gift to my mum since i was too excited to see how she'll react when she sees it.

& then she was like, " EH CANTIK NYE CUTE NYE MAMA SUKE! "

no the way she said wasn't sarcastic, it's just the way i typed it.

Hee! So yeah.

ate dinner. talked abt the elections ohmygod. -.-

i don't even understand a thing but nevermind.

So yeah, that's all for today. & i enjoyed today. ♥

Oh and ..

NADIA INSYIRAH it's okay i don't mind you being busy with your studies. I'm sorry for being so fucked up just because of that. & thank you. i enjoyed myself today & i hope you did too. :) love ya. ♥

ZAWIR told me to blog about him. Um, haha honestly my otak blank right now but i'll try lah k.

Um, i think he's my primary school senior, i'm not sure.

I met him that day when I went to USS with Lina & the rest. SOMBONG SIA MUKE. TAK TAWU NAK SENYUM PULAK TU. chey hahahahhaa !

So i ignored him lah. Tknk tegur. :P

Then we ate dinner at MacD's.

He sat at the table beside me & Lina.

I asked his friend for his name.

Then i asked for his, & he was like " you don't recognise me?! "

in my head i was like " i know you...? "

LOL that's stupid but yes.

Then so after that otw home we were friendlier & we kept disturbing each other. -.-

& now i think i owe him ben & jerry's & idk SINCE WHEN ALSO

but idk whether he's serious abt the ben & jerry's or not. :P

so yeah. Itu sahaja.

Don't say this post for you is short okay, blh tahan panjang tau !

hehe, mwah. :P

bye. ♥

Saturday, May 7, 2011

9:39 PM

tired

so mid-years have already started.

but i feel like i'm not taking anything seriously.

it's like .. lantak ah. who the hell cares.

like that.

Don't tell me i mcm phm. FYL.

i feel so lost, so confused, so hurt & maybe a lil' neglected.

Nadia Insyirah, it's not your fault.

It's mid-year, you have to study.

i'm sorry i made you feel bad or however i made you feel.

i didn't mean to.

it's just that i really needed someone to make me happy at that point of time

& maybe right now too

But i know you're just busy

& the rest are too.

Honestly, i was really upset when you kept saying you were gonna study study study

Then i talk to Lina, she sometimes bbl mcm tknk layan

then she busy with Wanie

Always Wanie. Then me? right i'm not Wanie.

Nk kate cemburu, blh jugak.

(Sometimes i think that people avoid me because i'm taller than them then they're embarrassed to be walking with/beside me.

YES, I DO THINK LIKE THAT.)

then dh mcm lupe kwn smue

then i sedih lah. Mcm mane tk sedih kan.

Imagine you tgh sakit hati rabak, then you really dont know what to do

then you talk to your friend that you syg

then they bbl mcm she's in her own world gytu, mcm tknk lyn you

then you talk to your other friend, ajak her kluar,

cause you really need a happy moment with her cause y'know she's the only person who can understand you really well

then she keep saying she tk blh she blajar

every single time

but i understand lah its mid-years, so i tknk kecik hati abt that

i knw you wanna do well, & i hope you will

so yeah.

thats why now i have 2 new close friends

it's not that i replace you ke ape, i will never do that

but its just that tkkn i nk dudok diam & suffer in silence

i really had to spill out everything to someone

& lagy2 they're my schl mates & they've got problems too

so we shared & stuff

& we 're like the forever alone gang who usually go solo

bcause yg lain dh mcm drift apart from us

& we cant do anything abt it right now

dont worry our friendship will never end

i still cherish you

you're my bestfriend

but right now i'm really lost & hurt

& i don't think i care abt anything anymore

it's not really because of you & lina

(i bet lina doesn't knw abt this either.)

i guess you should knw who, but if you dont, i'll tell you soon.

all i can say is that i was left hanging, just like that.

& right now i'm lost. really lost. i only smile & laugh when my 'friends' are there.

but when it's me alone, it's a different thing.

i bet y'know how that feels.

so yeah. i feel like i've fallen apart, like really fall apart.

i don't knw what to do anymore.

i hope you understand.

don't worry, i'm still me no matter what.

i'll just be a lil' more quiet.

♥♥♥

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Wednesday, May 4, 2011

6:59 PM

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