dream a little dream

fuck this shit

i have this feeling.

i'm in love, & it hurts so much. But whenever he smiles & hugs me, all my problems melt away.

i don't wanna be in love.

but i just am. & i can't help it.

i need a break from life.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

10:41 PM

moving on

i won't let myself fall anymore

& if i ever do, i'll pick myself up

i'll never show how weak i am anymore

i'll be the happiest

i'll keep on laughing until my cheek hurts

i'll smile to people more

i'll be the happiest

i won't give a fuck about whatever people think of me anymore

because it's their brains that they're using

Thank God it's not mine

i'll block out crap out of my head

i'll take in positivity

i'll be the happiest

Even if i feel like crying

i'll still smile & say that i'm okay

i'll be more patient than ever

i'll smile

even if deep down i'm in agony & full of sorrow

Labels: i ain't freakin' i ain't fakin' this

Friday, February 25, 2011

7:32 PM

the truth

Sometimes you feel like you screwed up

you feel like your whole world is falling apart

you heart starts aching

because you've got regrets

you wish you could take it all back

you wish you could go back to the past

& undo your mistakes

But you know you can't do that

because there's no such thing as time machines

& all you can do is cry your heart out

shutting yourself from the amazing world

that you've not met yet

But what's the point

of being miserable all the time

what's the point

of letting your heart get hurt all the time

you wish a prince charming will rescue you

from all the pain & sorrow

but that's a step from impossible

you can't let yourself be like this

you've let yourself suffer too much

you gotta start smiling to the world

& show 'em how strong you can be

even though deep down you're falling apart

& maybe those who are also in the same boat as you

will look up to you & say

" what a strong person. "

& you won't know, you might be the one

who is actually brightening up their lives

& when you take a step back

to see what good deed you've done

you'll finally realize

you yourself is an amazing person

& your heart will stop aching

because you know

you've stopped another person

from being the person who

they don't wanna be.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

8:47 PM

Common Test 1 is over :)

So that's my class up there ^ 3A3 / Hope 3-3.

After our 4D3N camp at the Malaysia Eco Farm.

i miss camp. like " why so sudden.. " right? i know.

Anyway, common test 1 is finally over. :))

i hope everyone will get good marks, esp my class!

hee. Physics paper was like #@$#@* ??!!

Math was ............

& today was art/f&n/POA.

Art was craaaaaazy.

Had to draw a bird. Pelican? i don't know.

it was like, " okay, 5 more minutes..."

& we were like, " what ?! "

okay, maybe not we. Maybe only me & Lal.

So yeah.

I WONDER WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW.

you're like the weather.

you can be as angry as a hurricane storm.

as cool as a breezy saturday morning.

as sad as the pouring rain.

Are you like having your period or what?

wait, i don't think so.

'Cause every single day you're like that.

I MISS LAUGHING & LAUGHING & LAUGHING WITH YOU.

but what's the point of saying it.

it's pointless.

It's like, every day it's getting worse.

i just wish i could go back to 2009.

When everything was perfect.

Well, not perfect but all smiles & always happy. :')

xoxo

4:52 PM

common tests fffffffu

So english & mother tongue common test will be tomorrow. TOMORROW. Piece of cake, right? Okay, more like fuck this shit my malay is horrible. i think i'm gonna go study lateron. Study what, i also don't know. Peribahasa lah. what else right. i feel like an idiot talking to myself.. oh, & TODAY IS THE MOST BORING-EST DAY IN SCHOOL EVER. i don't know why. So gonna be busy the whole week. Common tests. Last-minute studying. ~~Lepak skejap.~~ So yeah. Baaaai. ♥

Labels: my blog is officially dead with no fuckers reading it

Thursday, February 17, 2011

8:33 PM

live it up

school -- LJS -- Library -- home.

it's starting to be the usual routine for ' us ' right now.

& i never fail to buy the Hershey choco cream pie at LJS.

i think i'll get diabetes soon. i've been taking too much sweet stuff.

i hate physics 'cause i don't understand a single shit

most probably because i never pay attention in physics.

my fault, yes.

& i thought 2011 will be awesome

but no, the starting of it is NOT.

Guys, let's just make-up kiss kiss & forgive each other, could we?

but i can't. i just sit there smiling sweetly but inside i'm in agony.

i'm all alone right now. always, again, forever.

OK CUT THE CRAP LITTLE NYONYA'S ON AT SURIA BYE. ♥

xoxo

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

6:50 PM

Hallucinations

So, my blog's really dead. Nobody's reading it, even me. i just do all the typing.

Common tests are fucking next week. i'm tired. i'm really really tired. of what?

everything.

i can't stop pretending

i can't stop running away from the truth

Friday, February 11, 2011

8:26 PM

runaway.

i'm running on an uneven path

the air is cold & i'm shivering

the sky is turning grey

the sounds of happy birds chirping are no longer there

i'm all alone

i look behind

the monsters are catching up

i'm afraid

they hurt me emotionally

i start to cry

thinking about the past

i don't know where to go

i can hear my heart thumping

like as if it's in my ears

my heart is aching, slowly breaking

i'm all alone

suddenly i trip & fall

my head hits a rock

i start to bleed

i start crying even more

i probably look like a baby

crying & crying

the monsters see me

they start pointing & laughing at me

i close my eyes

& listen to my heart

beating slower & slower each second

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

8:56 PM

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